I struggled too. Never stop searching; at that point--you will become intellectually, emotionally, and mentally dead. Never (and I as well) passively accept anything as truth.
I am so excited to have found this forum."If you would be a real seeker after truth, it is necessary that at least once in your life you doubt, as far as possible, all things."
Rene Descartes
"I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has endowed us with sense, reason, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use."
Galileo Galilei
"The unexamined life is not worth living for man."
Socrates
"Quotation, n: The act of repeating erroneously the words of another."
Ambrose Bierce