my apology

[Metacrock]

bad pun, sorry.

My declaration to leave was based upon anger and self pitty. I have realized that I have been a jerk. I feel that certain people have been jerks toward me, but that's no excuse. I guess I have a sense of anger about the circustances that led to my career being put on hold. That makes me feel I should get credit for the years of hard work that I've put in on the doctorate. Instead of credit people are denying that I know anything for no good reason, just becasue they haven't heard of the things I'm talknig about.

But that is not a reason to be a jerk. I should have takne a lighter attitude toward it all. I apologize for being insulting. I guess p-contests are like snow balls, the self justification just mounts as it rolls along. "he said this, so i can all him this." "O no, you said this first, then I said that." "yea but you said the other thing before that..." So it keeps building until in the end you can't remember how it all started and you are justifying your own behavior.

[Cogitoergosum]

Welcome back metacrock, i'm happy u changed ur mind.
Remember, u don't want atheists to be the ones turning the other cheek when it is u, devout christian, that should do it

[Confused]

bad pun, sorry.

My declaration to leave was based upon anger and self pitty. I have realized that I have been a jerk. I feel that certain people have been jerks toward me, but that's no excuse. I guess I have a sense of anger about the circustances that led to my career being put on hold. That makes me feel I should get credit for the years of hard work that I've put in on the doctorate. Instead of credit people are denying that I know anything for no good reason, just becasue they haven't heard of the things I'm talknig about.

But that is not a reason to be a jerk. I should have takne a lighter attitude toward it all. I apologize for being insulting. I guess p-contests are like snow balls, the self justification just mounts as it rolls along. "he said this, so i can all him this." "O no, you said this first, then I said that." "yea but you said the other thing before that..." So it keeps building until in the end you can't remember how it all started and you are justifying your own behavior.

I apologize if I have contributed to your wanting to leave. I honestly don't mean to be a jerk and that last horrible post I sent you made me feel horrible. I meant the apology I gave. I am true when I ask questions. There is much you know that I don't, and many times you talk over my head. Not meaning to demean me, but what I mean is that you use too many technical terms for me to grasp your meaning. So I get them confused. (I am good at that). Though I look up the words, I can't make them fit into the context you use. So when I ask, I truly mean what I ask. I don't mean to come across as rude, but what do you expect when you are continuously told you don't know anything about anything. In some cases, you are right, and I hope you would teach me where I am thinking wrong. In many cases you have, but I never got the chance to tell you this because you usually responded with a rash comment before I could and I let my emotions get the better of me rather than thank you.

I am glad you are back and I have the chance to say that you have challenged many of my preconceived notions of historically validity. I hope learn more.

[Metacrock]

bad pun, sorry.

My declaration to leave was based upon anger and self pitty. I have realized that I have been a jerk. I feel that certain people have been jerks toward me, but that's no excuse. I guess I have a sense of anger about the circustances that led to my career being put on hold. That makes me feel I should get credit for the years of hard work that I've put in on the doctorate. Instead of credit people are denying that I know anything for no good reason, just becasue they haven't heard of the things I'm talknig about.

But that is not a reason to be a jerk. I should have takne a lighter attitude toward it all. I apologize for being insulting. I guess p-contests are like snow balls, the self justification just mounts as it rolls along. "he said this, so i can all him this." "O no, you said this first, then I said that." "yea but you said the other thing before that..." So it keeps building until in the end you can't remember how it all started and you are justifying your own behavior.

I apologize if I have contributed to your wanting to leave. I honestly don't mean to be a jerk and that last horrible post I sent you made me feel horrible. I meant the apology I gave. I am true when I ask questions. There is much you know that I don't, and many times you talk over my head. Not meaning to demean me, but what I mean is that you use too many technical terms for me to grasp your meaning. So I get them confused. (I am good at that). Though I look up the words, I can't make them fit into the context you use. So when I ask, I truly mean what I ask. I don't mean to come across as rude, but what do you expect when you are continuously told you don't know anything about anything. In some cases, you are right, and I hope you would teach me where I am thinking wrong. In many cases you have, but I never got the chance to tell you this because you usually responded with a rash comment before I could and I let my emotions get the better of me rather than thank you.

I am glad you are back and I have the chance to say that you have challenged many of my preconceived notions of historically validity. I hope learn more.

Hey thanks guys.

confussed, I appreciate he honesty and understanding you showed in the PM's. everything is cool

happyNew Year!!