I want true Silence to rain upon my head. I want my own greatness to grow - in my own privacy. That is true greatness. Not in the eyes of all. The past few days I have been inundated with the grace of God as I see it. This marks a decisive chapter of my life now, that is decisive for precisely the reason that it isn't mere narcissistic posturing. I want to make this sendoff simply because I think some people may find it meaningful, and if this post is somehow or other erased or deleted, the action itself was noteworthy and meaningful.
I felt for the longest time that I would have no last words upon the moment I leave this world. But now, if there are any words I would use, to address God or the void or anything else, in my last mortal moments, it could only be "sri krishna chaitanya". I honor those three words, just as the great Haridas Thakur did when he died, almost 500 years ago. There is nothing in me that presently finds a more fitting space emotionally, graced as I am.
So, I will let Haridas Thakur have the last word, and I will be out. Whether I ever come here again, is immaterial.
