LilytheTheologian wrote:
Hamsaka wrote:
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Replying to post 361 by LilytheTheologian]
My truthful answer is "I don't know." If, when I was 20, someone would have asked me about my beliefs, I would have said that I WANTED to believe, but I didn't see how it could all be true. Then I studied more and more, and finally, after 12 years came to the conclusion that it HAD to be true. not because I wanted it to be, but because it simply was. There was no other reasonable explanation.
Hi Lily,
It's fair to say, then, your conversion was deeply personal, and 'consistent' or very resonant with your personal existence.
These are things that cannot be 'proven', or shown to be 'the truth' past one's own life. This same sentiment is shared with most other Christians, who had similar experiences of their own.
Outside the individual Christian or a group of Christians who agree with each other, there is no 'truth' that can be shown or demonstrated, except for a collection of ancient religious texts. Use of them for evidence of truth can't fly, for all the reasons already mentioned.
A person must have a particular, subjective response to what they hear about the Christian message. Unless one's had that, the message has no unique power, nor is it all that compelling. It's not even all that different than the themes running through other major world religions. The dead raising back to life is hardly uncommon, it seems to be something all gods can do at will.
I had no idea that I was far from alone, having been willing to believe, going through the motions in anticipation of belief 'kicking in' . . . and it never did.
It could be that people who don't believe simply can't. And Bible reading and studying makes skepticism worse for people like me, not better

Hi again,
It's nice to see you.
I never really had a conversion. I did believe, but not deeply and unshakably. It was more like, "Yes, I do believe, but there is this little kernel of doubt in me that I wish God would take away." Of course, that did not happen, at least not when I asked for it.
I come from a very religious Roman Catholic family. There are many priests in my family, some nuns, and two of my ancestors were archbishops of Strasbourg. I grew up in a Carmelite cloister, among nuns. Priests took to me school and to town festivals, etc. I have never been a stranger to the Church.
I got degrees in drama and French, but I'd always wanted to study English Literature, so when I returned to the US, that's what I did. Then I had a religious experience that most Christians do not have, which I won't describe here, and my entire life changed. It came out of nowhere. I wasn't looking for one, I wasn't thinking about religion, and I was happy enough at the time, but within a week, I'd changed schools and changed my major to theology and gone back to church. And my studies have confirmed my faith for me as I wrote above.
Not everyone who believes is going to have a religious experience on the scale I did (and I wasn't hallucinating, etc., I didn't "see" or "hear" anything, and I have good mental and emotional and physical health).
I love hearing about people's backgrounds and appreciate you sharing it
I have known persons with similar 'awakenings' so to speak (don't focus too much on that word). We humans have a 'spiritual' instinct that varies between individuals but is universal enough that when we talk about it with each other, we pretty much get the gist. It's something I've been fascinated with as long as I can remember, as a child I was fascinated with it. When it finally happened to me, it was as godless as it could be, but in every other way described by others, it was the same.
The point of all that is to say I'm convinced of this 'instinct' and believe it serves a positive purpose, it's part of what we are. It makes sense that these experiences are influenced by the same things that influence us in every other aspect of life; family background, culture, and personal experiences. Just extending a 'validation' your way, for what it's worth.
However, I do believe people do have to be ready to accept God. It's a terrible analogy, but it's kind of like putting potatoes into fry into a pan that still cold - nothing's going to happen. To try to force Christianity on those who are not ready or who don't want it yet is going to upset them or make them angry. It's going to push them away.
I agree. Belief like this may be somewhat voluntary, but usually there is an experience that gives it the feeling of 'happening to you' rather than you being 'ready' or 'open and willing'. That's why when I finish gathering up all the nickels I've charged for being told I didn't try hard enough or I was (unknown to myself) 'resisting it', I'm gonna buy me a mansion in a waterfowl sanctuary
I don't think Christianity can be proven to an unbeliever or disproven to a believer. There is no "hard" evidence on either side. For example, I DO DEFINITELY believe in dinosaurs because, for one thing, there are dinosaur bones, which I've seen. I believe in evolution. I believe in the Big Bang. I believe in God, and I believe Christ was God.
But I believe you're right: the experience of coming to God has to be personal. It can't be rushed or forced. For some people, it will never happen. It will happen for others when they least expect it, like it did for me. Others will always have an uncritical faith that asks no questions, and even I don't understand that one, but I don't doubt it.
Very fair assessment. It's important to note that these experiences are the essence of subjectivity, and though it's apparent most people have an instinctive understanding of 'there's something more', it won't manifest in a certain way, like with Christian deities and themes. Apparently, it is just as life changing to have a number of other gods show up, or no gods at all.
I would be gobsmacked if Kali Ma showed up to a person with an upbringing and exposure to religion as you had. Really, who else would show up?
From past experience saying this, and having an offended theist protesting

I do realize ideas like this level the playing field, and leave no one religion in a stronger position than any other -- which leaves a person where they started, with a powerful subjective experience they can't deny, or show to be true for everyone else.
I will debate someone, though I'm not the best debater and never was. But I'm not going to try to convert anyone. I think that is between the person and God. In debating, I just ask that people keep options open, but I don't seek to convert anyone. There is no faster way to make enemies. I don't really believe in "Ancient Aliens," but I watch the show with an open mind, and who knows? Maybe some day I will believe in them.
You're right, if I told people what happened to me, they probably would not believe it, so I refrain because there is no way to prove it. And yes, it is fair to say that it was deeply personal, and I think it was meant for me alone. (Just for the record, I did not "see" God or an angel or the Virgin, etc., nor did I "hear" them. I am skeptical of the goings-on in Medjugogie myself.)
Have a good weekend.
There's never a need to convert anyone, ever, when you think about it. Converting someone isn't different than teaching someone something new. Show them the evidence, and either they accept it or they don't. No need for compelling rhetoric, though it can help. The substance of the evidence will do the work for you.